I got my Master Degree almost one year ago with a good grade and I started to work immediately in a little company owned by an university professor, because it was close to my to my place and because this professor filled my head up with a lot of nice promises about cool project.
Now it's almost one year I'm working there, but I feel frustrated, undervalued and "underused" for the tasks they are making me to do. In addiction I feel frustration also because they just give me tasks without explain (for deadlines reasons) all the system and things upstream of my task. This way, often my tasks become stupid: make things work without understanding. So, after almost one year, I feel I'm not learning anything.
Some moths ago, I left my country for private reasons. I moved to Germany, but I'm still working for my company remotely from my house through VPN.
Without telling my boss, who thinks all is ok, I started to look for a new job here.
While I'm looking for the new job, I'm still keeping my current one because I'm afraid of not being able to find an interesting job immediately, and not because of lack of technical skills, but because interviews are hold in English/German, and I feel still not so good in speaking English/German.
But day by day I feel I'm wasting my time, because, anyway, my current job takes most of the day, and I cannot invest so much time in researches or in improving my language skills. Or maybe invest my time in a private project in order to learn more than I'm currently learning.
Sometime I don't even understand why I'm keeping my job. It's not even a money issue, because anyway the German State would help me if I'll become unemployed. Less money (not such a big problem for now: I don't have a family to take care of), but more time to find a job that really satisfies me.
Sometime I feel I'm keeping it for sense of responsibility (?!?) or something like that. Maybe sometime there is a part of me which says I'd be spoiled if I quit my job...
So, my question is: should I keep my current job or not meanwhile I'm looking for a new one? Should I feel bad staying without a job for sometime?